I got my hard cast off my right foot yesterday! PTL! But while celebrating this small step in recovery, I kept getting bogged down by the fact that once my right foot heals, I have to do this all over again with my left. Four more weeks of not bearing weight on my foot and six weeks in a walking boot is not the end. I have one more IV, seven more incisions, twelve more weeks of limited movement and a whole lot of pain. Trying hard to not get discouraged and to keep the tears from falling I said, "Maybe Jesus will just heal my foot on His own and I won't need surgery." I said that as a joke, like it was such a silly, impossible thought.
How foolish am I?
It breaks my heart how often I forget the Bible is not just a storybook and how often I forget that I serve a living God. The Bible is TRUTH and Jesus is ALIVE! He restored the lame. He gave sight to the blind. He gave the mute a voice. He ended the woman's hemorrhaging. He told the paralytic to get up. He gave freedom to the leper. He rose the widow's son and Lazarus from the dead. He cast out demons. He healed the sick with only a touch and He restored a girl to life with just a few words. Y'all Jesus heals. He healed then and He heals today and He will heal tomorrow. How foolish am I to think that my little foot is beyond His grasp. The Lord is BIG and POWERFUL and more than capable to heal my foot in any way that He wills. I have to believe that. The idea of my foot just one day being completely fixed, without surgery, seems so far beyond my grasp. But that's what the Lord is - He is beyond my grasp, so far beyond my understanding. But that's what faith is too.
'Faith is being sure of what you hope for and certain of what You do not see.' - Hebrews 11:1
I might not physically see the Lord or understand Him always, but I am certain that the He is bigger than medicine, more powerful than surgery and will heal my feet anyway He wills. I am done praying small prayers. The Lord desired surgery for my right foot, but who knows what He has in store for me left. My prayer right now, is that in the name of Jesus, the Lord will heal my left foot without the means of surgery and that all the glory will be for His name.
I bet you think I'm crazy, but I believe with my whole heart that He can do it. Will I be sad or angry or upset if He wills something different? Absolutely not. The Lord is in control. He knows what's best and He is faithful always! As difficult as surgery has been, He has taught me more than I can convey and I know He will give my strength to do it again. So, whether the Lord takes my foot into his own hands or guides the hands a surgeon, I will cling to the fact that above all else, HE IS GOOD. He is so very good!
Jesus told the paralytic to walk because his friends prayed and believed and the He could!
Will you pray with me?
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